Eyes are swollen. Been crying all day. Pain is all over my face. Can’t hide it. Fake smile is not working. I need to put on a mask. I want to cover up the pain. Nobody needs to know that I am hurting very bad. Self inflicted pain that I can no longer bear.
When my head hurts, I take my pain killer and sleep it off. Then the next morning when I wake up, I feel all better. But what if, the heart is aching? Is there any amount of pain killer that can take away the pain? If there is I’d take them all. Now. But there isn’t. As the famous line in the famous movie Fault In Our Stars go: “That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt.”
Forcing yourself to let go will only make you bitter. To overcome pain is to let yourself endure it. Let time heal you and bring you back to what was. Be patient and let things fall into its place.
I am lucky I can still feel the pain. This means that I am still alive and still have the chance to make things right. Now I know that pain killer is not what my aching heart needs – TIME.